Its hard for people without depression to understand when some days that just dropping a cup of water will bring you to tears because they think oh this is just one little thing but you see it as oh my god I can’t even get water without fucking up and now I’ve made a huge mess I shouldn’t even try
It just occurred to me that Saul could have saved himself, David, and Israel a whole lot of trouble if had just betrothed his son Jonathan to David. Then David could have been king like God wanted, but so could Jonathan his son, no civil war necessary. And Jonathan/David is a totally canon OTP.
Current problem: too little sleep + too much caffeine + normal effexor dosage after a couple missed days = an all over shakiness. I feel like a badly drawn animation. (It’s not badly drawn, it’s purposeful shakiness. Philistine.) This would probably be alleviated by the consumption of food, but another side effect is complete lack of appetite, to the point of feeling nauseated at the idea of eating.
I should probably eat anyway, but I have a philosophical objection to spending money to buy food I won’t enjoy. Ugh.
I’ve been doing this dance so long, why do I keep tripping? Will I always have to face down the demons of my own inability to keep it together? It was such a good stretch of being a Real Adult, too. And I’ve gone and fucked it all up, and I can’t even keep track of taking my meds, which I need more than ever to help keep me sane. Literally sane.
Call it ‘What Happened In Budapest’.
# What happened in Budapest
Just make Fraction’s Hawkguy comic into a movie. It’ll make up for Renner having fuckall to do in Avengers.
I just reblog every time I see that Natasha Macing A Dude Without Looking gif. I don’t really care who else is with her. Captain America’s in her new movie, I think?
Not only would I go see this movie, I WOULD BUY CONCESSIONS AT IT.